How long do I have left?

Last night, a very pleasant one ended with sad news: again, someone was diagnosed with brain tumor. Although no details were available at this moment, if it is a malignant one, we all know what it means. As for other type of tumor, there may be some "miracles", but malignant brain tumor means hopelessness, suffering, and death.

After all the time, energy, and money spent on cancer research, we have better diagnosis techniques, but still don't have any "major" breakthrough in cancer treatment. "That sucks", I grumbled to myself on my way home, "Cancer almost equals 'you are doomed'. Unless it is diagnosed at a very early stage, the doctors are really to calculate in their heads how long the patient has left. They are good at doing that, very accurate."

All of a sudden, my sad and ironical thought took a sharp turn. "How long do I have left?" As a clinically healthy person, I have no idea. Will it change my life if I know exactly how long I have left? Absolutely. I think that I would work out a great plan for the days that I have left and make sure that I really follow the plan. In that case, when my last day came, I would lie down and rest in real peace. Of course, living a life that way is not very practical for a healthy person. However, I do think it a good idea to make a list (the "MY list") about things you want to do as if you didn't have much time left. We set all kinds of goals for ourselves and make plans accordingly to achieve them. Sometimes we are too focusing on this or that goal so that we forget about what we would write down on the "MY list".

"No, I don't think that was a dellusion."

If you did see it, it was NOT there.