Thursday, April 9, 2009

It was actually much easier...

This post should have been done on TUESDAY, April 7, but I was a little overwhelmed then.

Yup, another Tuesday. I made the move, finally, after about two years of self-torture. Of course, the result could be predicted a long time (like two years, LOL) ago. I did follow the "protocol": playing cool first and bursting into tears afterward with my lovely friend (THANKS, CF! You ARE my life-saver.) sitting next to me. After the *routine* (which took less than 30min), everything took a sharp turn: I was SO relieved that I felt hyper and bubbly for the rest of the night. Actually I could not help beaming all the time the day after (which is yesterday) as well. I tried to explain to another close friend why I was like that yesterday: It is like you have been working very hard all the time for an very very important test and now the test is over; the whole preparation stressed you out way before the test and you simply wanna to get it DONE. In my case, it is not like the issue was bothering me 24/7, but part of my personal life did HOPELESSLY revolve around it for the past two years so that I started to hate myself for losing the control (which I have complained a lot in the blog).

Because I am who I am, I have had a lot of self-reflection since Tuesday. Although it is a miserable story to tell and I was definitely pathetic for most of the time, I definitely benefited from the whole experience in some way. Meanwhile, I am really proud of myself for making the move and finally taking control of my life again (which could have been done sooner).

Anyway, it is DONE, OVER, and OUT OF MY WAY now and I am RELIEVED and HAPPY.

Oh, I almost forgot. This blog will be for ME now. :)